Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about life, death, and balance between living for today and preparing for tomorrow.
In the past couple of months, I’ve known two friends of friends who have been in serious car accidents. Both of them are in their twenties. Both have suffered severe trauma and are still in comas.
That news hit me harder than I had expected. I don’t know them personally – but the fact of it is – they were like me. Young and invincible. Maybe armed with a 5-Year Life Plan. Only luck and circumstance separate us.
Joan Didion began in The Year of Magical Thinking (one of my all time favorite books), life changes fast. Life changes in an instant.
You sit down to dinner (or jump in the car, or see the doctor, or get on the plane) and life as you know it ends.
I just read that a lawyer committed suicide in his office after his layoff. I can’t imagine the personal anguish that would cause someone to take his life because of a job situation. I pray that his family is okay.
Retirement / “financial independence” is the Big Goal for most personal finance bloggers. Now MSN informed me that I might never retire. Never is a long long time.
Life is easy when the path is linear. College – job – graduate school – better job. Save and invest and aim towards that golden retirement. But the zig-zags catch me off guard. It’s easy to say, carpe diem! It’s hard, really hard, to be brave enough to do so.
It’s hard to seize the day. Seizing takes effort. Self-awareness. Emotional intelligence. Resilience. How am I suppose to develop all that in my twenties? Can it wait ’til my thirties?
This post is disjointed, but the point of it, I suppose, is this: if I am lucky, life will be both too long and too short. Too long not to prepare for tomorrow. Too short to keep passing up on today.