I went to Washington D.C. a few weekends ago, and it was gorgeous. Just look at this pictures – and those four perfect little puffs of clouds!
Ever since I’ve accepted a full-time offer of employment from my summer employer (and had some rather intense/shaky conversations in my personal life), I have been thinking a lot about how I want to shape my life, how I want to choose happiness, how I want to increase my capacity for kindness, forgiveness, adventure, resilience, and lastly, but not least, my ability to find joy in the small things, the simple things. Like four perfect little puffs of clouds on a sunny day.
There is a lot going on in my life that’s great, and a fair amount that I wish I could change or fix or learn to let go of. Some of that is related to my anxiety around not having enough money. After a particularly bad night I’ve resolved to take responsibility for my own happiness and well-being. And to do that, maybe I need to change my attitude around money.
I have this very real, almost visceral fear of being old and poor, and out on the streets. Sometimes fear is good when it prompts me to save, but it can also be very limiting. I have always lived below my means, but I have never felt that my means were enough. Lately, I’ve realized that, yes, I want to make a good living and save and invest, but I also want to create a life of a little more optimism, and a little less fear, when it comes to money. Not that I will close my eyes and believe everything will be peachy and stop contributing to my 401K, but rather that I will make a plan to save adequately for retirement and a down payment and the like and then beyond that, not always feel compelled to save more and more and more.